A Questioning of Purpose

My retreat from the world.
My retreat from the world.

I have been on an unintentional self-imposed break from my blogging in the past few weeks. My usual excuse is that I just got too busy with work and life.  This time was different.  This time my break came from world event overload.  On more than one occasion I have been described as “overly sensitive”.  At this point in my life I guess I should agree, but I don’t think that my reaction to horrific brutality should be considered “overly sensitive”.

What the soul sickening events have produced is a questioning of purpose. With all the millions of blogs out in the world and all the much smarter people doing much more to counter act the evil, disease and injustice with their words, does my time spent on this keyboard amount to anything more than a waste of my time?  To my readers, I apologize if I have wasted your time.

In my lifetime of considering myself an artist, I have often questioned the substance of what I do. Am I just making pretty things?  Does my work say anything of importance?  Am I just contributing to the materialism that eats away at our environment and financial security?  Ok, so I am also an over thinker, but maybe something that takes up a huge portion of your limited lifespan and thought needs to be examined occasionally.  If you also read my design & print blog at btsprintanddesign.com you will see a similar post.  When I rethink one thing it leads to all the rest.

What I hope to accomplish with my artwork is to give you a sense of peace and gratitude. I am drawn to the little details around us that we often take for granted.  It is doubtful you will find expansive landscapes here though it could happen.  I appreciate the rusted and worn for the value it has given.  I can’t bring myself to make something disturbing in the name of “art”, though that also could happen if my soul is disturbed enough that it cannot be contained.

As one tiny entity on this planet, I recognize that most world problems are infinitely complicated and I do not have the knowledge to accurately spout my opinions. Most of my opinions are gut reactions to what I hear through often slanted media and the limitations of my own culture.  To the best of my abilities I will keep my opinions to myself.

I will not keep my time, talents and money to myself.   As much as possible I will use them to improve life on this planet if only in my tiny corner of the world.  I doubt I can do anything to stop the horrible things humans do to each other, the creatures that live with us or the planet we live on, but maybe I can, in some small way, improve the life of another human or animal and clean up a patch of earth.

I will not plaster words on this site just to have content. In the past I have tried to follow a schedule of posting that eventually results in a rush to put something on my blogs that has very little substance.  From now on I will take my time and do my best to put words worth reading on here.  There will not be a set schedule.  Life is too short to read or write meaningless words.

If you have made it to this point in this blog, thank you for your patience. I would love to hear from you if you also struggle with everything we are bombarded with and how you deal with it in your life and work.

Wishing for you, blessings and peace.

Christel

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